I'm going to start off by saying that I was in a relationship for a bit and it ended a little bit ago. I'm broken up about it and I'm having a hard time to be okay again.
Issues that I have have been getting worse as well and it all is becoming too much for me all at once. i want to find a therapist so they can help me sort out everything that is going on in my head.
On top of that I have my first job and first car. I should be really happy about both of those things, but my depression has gotten so bad. I don't want to get out of bed anymore. It has become extremely difficult for me to get out of bed. I have to force myself up. Not only that, but my back issues that I have had since I was 12 have recently gotten a whole lot worse. My job just makes it feel worse. I went to the doctor and they gave me muscles relaxers, but they really aren't helping. All I know is I'm in extreme amounts of pain and I can barely move.
Due to my depression, i have lost interest in school work. I'm so close to finishing the last of this certificate, but I can't focus enough to finish so I can pursue what I want to.
I need to take a step back and get myself and my life back in order and I don't know where to begin. i need so much help. I'm hoping at the end of this month that I will be able to go visit my best friend for a few days. I think that being away for a while will do me a lot of good. To clear my head so I can come back and deal with everything that I need to.
Besides all of that, I have decided to write a book. So many things have been happening and it has been making my mind go in crazy directions that thoughts just need to be written down, so I write. I have been writing little passages about all kinds of things that I have learned in life. I don't have a name for my book yet because it hasn't come to me. I have titles for each passage as well and some of them are untitled as well. A friend of mine said I should post up each passage for you guys to read, but I think they are written badly so I don't know if I'm going to or not. If you guys would like to see what I have written so far, than I will be more than happy to share them with you. Let me know in the comments.
I'm sorry I have been away for so long. I will try and be better about it, but I have been trying to stay away from all social media or anything that takes a lot of my time, so I can focus on me and getting myself better. I hope you guys can understand.
I hope you all have been doing well. If you are going through a rough patch like I am then just know that everything will work itself out the way it is supposed to.
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